oh my. so much to say, so little time. well, more like so little energy. I'm at camp. it's been a really really long day. this morning we had a group of counselors from an agency called 'bound together' come, and we did some training for them. it was actually really fun, they were very cool, but it was also kind of draining. then heather and I went shopping for craft supplies, which was also kind of draining because we had to figure out how to buy everything we need while staying within the budget, blah blah blah...we didn't get everything. this evening we've all been pretty slaphappy, and freaking out a bit because our staff gets here on thursday, and we don't feel completely prepared. but, I'm sure things will work out.
susie and luke's wedding was on saturday. it was really nice, but at the reception I got incredibly drunk. it was fun at the time, but when we got home I was sick, and continued to be sick the next day, about 5 times. not pleasant, not attractive. I am setting some guidelines for myself about my drinking, and I intend to follow them, because its getting a bit out of hand.
been thinking about hans way too much. that's because I've seen him a lot. he was at the wedding, of course. he was a groomsman, and he also sang during the service. at the reception I made it a point to not hover around him or try to talk to him a lot. pretty much every time we talked it was him coming to me, which I guess was good. then yesterday he came here to pick up his dog, maya, who we were taking care of for the weekend. and I've been thinking about him a LOT since the reception. he's coming here tomorrow for some reason, and thursday as well, so there's no point in trying to remove him from my mind right now. but maybe after that he won't be around as much...who knows. regardless, I must keep repeating in my head the immortal words of linkin park- "what it means to me will eventually be a memory of a time I tried so hard and got so far, but in the end it DOESN'T EVEN MATTER. I had to fall to lose it all, but in the end it DOESN'T EVEN MATTER." yes.
susie and luke's wedding was on saturday. it was really nice, but at the reception I got incredibly drunk. it was fun at the time, but when we got home I was sick, and continued to be sick the next day, about 5 times. not pleasant, not attractive. I am setting some guidelines for myself about my drinking, and I intend to follow them, because its getting a bit out of hand.
been thinking about hans way too much. that's because I've seen him a lot. he was at the wedding, of course. he was a groomsman, and he also sang during the service. at the reception I made it a point to not hover around him or try to talk to him a lot. pretty much every time we talked it was him coming to me, which I guess was good. then yesterday he came here to pick up his dog, maya, who we were taking care of for the weekend. and I've been thinking about him a LOT since the reception. he's coming here tomorrow for some reason, and thursday as well, so there's no point in trying to remove him from my mind right now. but maybe after that he won't be around as much...who knows. regardless, I must keep repeating in my head the immortal words of linkin park- "what it means to me will eventually be a memory of a time I tried so hard and got so far, but in the end it DOESN'T EVEN MATTER. I had to fall to lose it all, but in the end it DOESN'T EVEN MATTER." yes.
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